I am somewhat not hesitant to call a failure a failure. My mom taught me that as long as you make your best effort you have nothing to blame yourself for. Now, I tried. I setup the best goals that I thought I had to complete and didn’t complete them. I can make excuses, but the point is, I setup a goal and I failed. But instead of excusing myself, or not confronting the results, I want to look into the eye of my failed projects and ask like an abandoned lover “where did we go wrong?”
So here are a couple of things I planned for that I didn’t fully complete:
Writing Novel #1: I still love the idea of my first long-story, but I was greatly unprepared to write it. I sort of pants my way through this story (a contemporary adaptation of the Ass), but failed to complete the manuscript when the structure fell apart. I realized that I needed more planning.
Lesson learnt: I decided to ditch the YA genre, and focus instead on a genre I was more passionate about (this realization coincided with reading Write to Market)
Not publishing my 7 Plan: This is a plan for the decade ahead that I haven’t completed yet. I guess it will be a 8 year plan by the time I publish it.
Lesson learnt? Oh, man. I’m still digesting this one. I’ll get back to you with something.
Writing the first draft of my Novel #2 during NaNoWriMo: I wrote 35K words, but couldn’t get myself to write another 15K words )
Lesson learnt? NaNoWriMo forced the realization that I couldn’t write the book yet without more preparation. At least I learnt the lesson in just 3 weeks (unlike book #1). Now I have a plan.
Writing a book seems at times like a mountain of monumental proportions. I know that a book is written one word at a time, but the mountain is not any smaller because of it. Many well intentioned folks are now declaring their resolution for 2017. I am sceptical of life changing decisions made in a rush over a few drinks of champagne, so I like to keep my resolutions somewhat abstract. I think of them as a philosophy rather than a specific goal.
So rather than making the resolution to write a book in 2017, I have, instead, a plan.
I am now preparing for a second draft of my first novel, and I have decided to create a calendar for the book as a whole, and plan out all the tasks and milestones ahead.
This is my book laid out for 2017:
This is basically 9 months of work including planning of the book, writing, editing and publishing. I tried to make it all fit in half the time and I had to accept that I can’t commit to that goal. Estimating projects is quite complicated and estimating the time for a project that you have never done before is even more so. So 9 months it is!
When I first thought about writing this book I wanted to complete it in 3-4 months. Then after failing, I decided that NaNoWriMo (1 month), would be even a better idea (genius, I know). Now that I failed a second time, I decided to make a detailed plan of how I am planning on getting to the top of this mountain before I lose my oxygen.
“I’ve found that people who outline a lot spend more time up front planning. People who discover their story by writing it spend more time at the end revising. It tends to even out.”
I’ve long known that I am much more a plotter than a “pantser” but after writing thousand of words for NaNoWriMo, I came to the conclusion that my book lacked structure. The plot wasn’t tight enough and I wasn’t ready for such amount of writing.
Plotting and planning can feel like procrastination at times. There’s definitely a danger of never ending quest for the perfect plot. As a perfectionist I know too well about this sin, but it’s never been my style to leave success to luck.
After reading Outlining Your Novel I have decided to plan the full lenght of my novel writing, starting with an outlining phase of one full month. At first glance it seems overkill—it does to me at least—but looking into all the tasks involved, I rather be safe. I think of outlining as the key that will let me enjoy the wild ride of writing, and still get me safe to port.
“For many of us, writing is all about tapping that sense of freedom—the promise that anything could be waiting for us around the next bend in the road. Some writers fear outlining will destroy that freedom by locking them into a set route. But the truth is just the opposite. Freedom is knowing you never have to stare down the blinking cursor and the blank page because you don’t know what comes next. You’re still free to explore all you want, but, at the end of the day, when the detour turns out to be a dead end, you can always return to the marked path you know will lead to your destination. With your route highlighted on the map, you’re free to put on your sunglasses, crank up your tunes, and let your hair blow in the wind.”
—K.M. Weiland Outlining Your Novel
Everybody speaks inside their heads. Everybody has dialogs with themselves. I don’t chat, I interview myself. Sometimes I’m an entrepreneur, others an author or an intellectual. But always I am successful.
Many times I ask myself about the origins of my triumph.
“What is the key to success, Max? How did you get there? Where did the spark of inspiration came from? when did it hit you? Is there a recipe for success?”
Other times I ask about future beyond my success.
“What’s next? Are you afraid you will be a one hit wonder? How are you going to top this? Do you have another project in the works?”
And sometimes, I like to look beyond my own life timeline, and ask myself about the meaning of it all.
“What would be your message for aspiring artists? What would be your legacy? If you had to summarize your life motive, what would it be?”
I have long interviews, and short ones too. I see through the years of work and listen to my advice and words of wisdom. I tell myself, what the truly valuable thing is, I tell myself that there is a meaning to just being even if life is, well, meaningless. And that success is not the answer but also not something to disregard.
the only way to find the treasure is to get yourself all mucky crawling around in the jungle.
—K. M. Weiland, Outlining Your Novel
My plan for this blog is not to be a perfect place for reference, but to serve me as a tool for exploring and learning. I am convinced that through the act of recording my discoveries, I strengthen the lessons and learn new things.
Just like the fact that there is no better way to learn a topic than having to teach it, I hope that nothing better to cement my learnings than by recording the raw path.
As I like to say: It’s about the journey, not the destination. The journey is the destination.
Yes, I am planning for somebody else to write my novel.
I was just reading Outlining Your Novel by K.M. Weiland and the second chapter introduced an interesting idea for starting your outlining process: writing the perfect review for your future book. This is a glowing review of your finished book that highlights all the merits of the story. Whatever one writes in this review is the high level goal for the book.
I’ve been thinking lately how to better organize or schedule the writing of my book. As somebody who relies on calendars and schedules to complete my projects, I would like to find a similar approach for fiction writing.
So Weiland’s book got me thinking about an approach for planning my book: Creating a plan for somebody else’s work. In other words, prepare the scheme for the novel as a series of steps and directions to be followed by somebody, anybody, not necessarily me. My hope is that this will force me to be more explicit about the work that needs to be done, and like with the review, have a more clear defined goal that’s easier to achieve.
So, I am planning for somebody else to write my book, and I will just carry on the plan myself.
Do more, think less: Anything that can help me break the habit of perfectionism and the consequence of paralysis by analysis. Another slogan favorite of mine: “Done is better than perfect”
Daily writing: No idea how I’m going to pull this one off1. What I learned last year is that I need to read fiction to learn the genre and I need to read non-fiction books about writing to learn the craft. It is hard to accomplish a high daily word count if I also want to read (not to mention other things in life, gym anyone?).
Finish my first book: I had a few failed attempts last year. Failed is a strong word, but I’m not hesitant to use it. I learned a fuckload last year, some setbacks along the way are necessary. Mandatory I would say.
Focus on what’s worth: This goal sounds simple and too abstract but it is really the key to most things I expect to get done. I want to get rid of everything that I don’t care for or I don’t need. I want to apply the sort of minimalism that I already follow for house items and clothes2, to everything in life. By getting rid of distractions I hope to be able to focus on what really matters, make room for new things and reduce stress.
Maybe use Tumblr blog for daily shower-thoughts, and WordPress blog for longer form writing. Or, post for one month on tumblr, post for one month on WordPress. Compare notes on March 1st. ↩
In the book How to Make a Mind, Ray Kurzweil proposes the intriguing idea that the brain behaves like a massive pattern recognizing machine. The beauty of the concept is that the brain–or the neocortex to be more exact–is entirely focused on this single task and all activities within the brain can be explained as examples of pattern recognition.
When we see a friend, we first see curves and shapes, then we identify a face and finally we recognize the significance of this face. This hierarchy is, from beginning to end, a pattern recognition exercise (shapes turn into a face, and a face turns into a friend). Ideas, behaviors, responses, etc, all can be understood as the brain finding these patterns and matching them with similar patterns stored in the brain in the form of memories.
I love the idea that the amazing complexities of the brain are ruled by one “simple” algorithm.
When we left the movie theater years ago, my buddy said to me “I didn’t understand what that movie was about”. We were still in highschool and had just came out of watching a remastered version of Blade Runner. I thought I had understood the movie, but my buddy was smart, so I knew that there was something more to understand that I had completely missed. Something more than meets the eye.
And now we have more.
Have you seen the new Blade Runner trailer? Blade Runner 2049. Of course you’ve seen it. It is a full package of hope wrapped up in Harrison Ford nostalgia and Ryan Gosling LA-ness.
The trailer features a deserted korean building with a piano and Vangelis-like music. Reading on the limited dialog and action it looks like Ryan might be after the girl or after Deckard as a suspected replicant.
I hope Blade Runner 2049 is a good movie. Or at least a movie that makes me think that there was more to it than what meets the eye.
You can’t get more evil and disgusting than Vladimir_Harkonnen: a face covered in blistering diseases, killing his servants for pleasure, ruling with terror, appointing his family members positions of power, is a long list.
Emperor Palpatine (Star Wars series)
This guy doesn’t need an introduction. Emperor Palpatine started his political carrer as Senator from Naboo and then manipulated his way up to become Supreme Chancellor of the Galactic Republic first, and then Emperor of the Galactic Empire.
Big Brother (1984)
Big Brother is the leader of the totalitarian state in Oceania. Despite the comforting name, Big Brother’s ruling oppressive and despotic.
Ming the Merciless (Flash Gordon)
Ming ruled a whole planet, Mongo and was the villain of Flash Gordon serials. To be honest, Flash did land in Mongo uninvited and unannounced (in the original comic strips), so what’s a guy with a name like the Merciless gotta do but retaliate?
President Snow (The Hunger Games series)
North America has become a dictatorship and President Snow is its ruthless leader.
Dr. Doom (The Fantastic Four)
Doctor Victor Von Doom rules the country of Latveria with an iron fist. As it is the case in most megalomaniac dictatorships, the populace is poor and fully dependant on their tyrant.
I'm Max Zsol and I'm sharing my journey into self-publishing fiction writing. I've worked in marketing and advertising for over 15 years and I'm now writing my first novel.